Fathers rites issue

I'm in nova scotia I have 4 children with 3 mothers and they have been working together to alienated me and make sure i stay buried in support my arrears have been ran up 80000 in the past 3 years trying to get ro court to get them adjusted my mental health is fading and they are trying to use it against me in court but the whole reason mental health is fading is because I miss my babies and I want to be a father but I'm not being even given an opportunity on has sat down and hand writen a letter stating he dosnt want me to be his father cause he dosnt like how I treated his brother mother and his mother he was cohersedand the writing is in her hand and now because of support cases trying to save myself from wrongfully arrears they are trying to use my mental health issues to prevent contact with my children and I'm attending fatherhood matters groups and bettering myself but with no income on assistance the past two years and still getting charged 1194 a month just 2 of the four kids I don't know where to turn anymore I'm honestly not ok I feel like there's no point anymore 😢